יום ראשון, 18 בדצמבר 2011

Embracing Earthquakes

My dear friend Y. invited me along on a trip to Chiang Rai, which is how I've found myself today at "Wat Pradhat Pra-Ngao" in Chiang Saen - a Buddhist temple (Also spelled "Wat Phra That Phra Ngao").



Inside it I was surprised by the strong emotions that rose inside me. I was moved. Overwhelmed. 

Only after I left it, I realized why that was so: 
The Buddha statue inside this Wat (temple) is between 700 - 1,300 years old and was revealed thanks to an earthquake. 
The famous Emerald (Jade) Buddha was too revealed thanks to an earthquake, in Chiang Rai. 
I guess this is a good area for revealing things through earthquakes.


And I realized that instead of living in fear of earthquakes - those I already went through and those I might still go through - I can embrace them: The earthquakes I went through changed me quite a bit during the past 2 
years. The aftershocks made me take some decisions. Some of the decisions I've made scare the breath out of me. So I guess it took earthquakes to steer me in these new directions, to make me step outside my comfort zones.

I've been feeling lately like I have been peeled raw. It was neither a pleasant nor a comfortable experience to go through, and I wasn't sure I WAS going to go through it during some of it, but I have been shedding several layers thanks to it, mainly masks and (false?) protections. 
Naturally, what follows is me feeling exposed. Unprotected. Sensitive. Raw. Charting unknown territories inside my own skin. Skirting some danger zones. 
But it also means I'm becoming more of my own raw material again. 

The earthquakes in Thailand revealed things long hidden. I wonder what has been long hidden inside me which can now come out. 

When upper layers of earth move, deeper layers of earth are revealed underneath and become exposed to rays of light, become apparent to the world. Up to this point I was mostly feeling the horrors of it.


I still feel the debris falling over my head, but for the first time in a long while, I also feel the debris falling away from me. 

4 תגובות:

תודה על השיתוף (הבלוג מאפשר תגובות מזוהות בלבד).
Thank you for sharing (The blog does not allow commenting anonymously)